without music, life would be~

Saturday, August 01, 2009

busy busy.

I'm really starting to get busy. The last I blogged was more than a week ago, unbelievably. I've really no idea where my time goes sometimes. School days, it's either I get home early and grab an hour or two of sleep, or i stay in school till 6 getting tutorials done. Then I've been taking up tuition also, which practically occupies my whole Sunday, so tutorials have to be done on Sat. Except, today was spent in school for the nanyang concept test, which was quite a disaster, proving how much I need to study for both physics and chem before As. Yup, so I have to go get tutorials like Transition metals, complex no.s 3, and nuclear physics 1 done later. I haven't had free time in a while. Like, the last time i even touched my guitar was a month or two back. >< Grah. Okay tutorials after dinner then.~

Friday, July 24, 2009

friday, friday~

It's Friday! I submitted my two econs mindmaps! Yes I did. Haha. Although I didn't quite get the other two essay outlines done. Anyway, school ended at 12.10 today. Cause of 1) College Day rehearsal 2) Liverpool visits VJC! Ahha :) But a bit sad. Cause only 3 people from there came down, and only one was really famous (currently famous), and that was Xabi Alonso. Anyway, not only did only 3 people come down, we didn't really get to see them, or get autographs or something, cause what they did was walk around the field, where only some people were allowed on, and take pictures with the VJ soccer team. :( So sad didn't get to even get close. But at least I saw him in real life :)

Okayokay. After that, headed over to marina square with classmates to watch Public Enemies, which was quite cool, although some people don't seem to appreciate it, falling asleep during the movie. It was quite a long one, and quite complicated too. But still it was nice.

Okayokay I'm off. First post since tuesday. My blogging frequency has decreased.~

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

same old, same old.~

I did the same thing i did yesterday again today getting home. I keep missing the 196 by like a minute or two. Zzz. Anyway, I'm half-done with ONE of the two econs mind-maps. And I haven't touched the two econs essay outlines yet. I am so productive huh. Maybe I should just sleep early today. There's a solar eclipse tomorrow, and I can't go out from buildings if not i'll get bad luck, supposedly. Maybe I'll do a bit of econs then sleep. Maybe.~

Monday, July 20, 2009

tired~

Sometimes, I wonder if it's better just throwing it all away. I mean, it's maybe a bit of trouble sometimes, but it's always been good all along. Just that life brings along things in the way which really can't be avoided. Besides, with ccas coming to an end for j2s, I just end up hanging out with my class people more. Anyway, it's hard. Even if I would like to make an effort at times, it's not in my personality to do some things. Times like these i just roll my chair back a bit, lean forward, prop two elbows on my table, stare at the computer screen, with my two hands on my head, pulling at my hair, while I just feel quite messed up.

Ah I'm feeling quite lost. Gonna go sleep it over. I'm off. Night~

smart or not?~

Walking out of school today, I missed the 196 as I was walking around the bend at the main road. So I sms-ed Iris to see how long till the next bus. 16 minutes. So what did I do? I took the next bus coming in to parkway, which was a 76. And just nice, the 196 which I missed was right behind the 76 when it arrived at parkway. :) So i spent 35 cents more to save about 15 minutes of time. What a trade off.

feeling a bit off and lousy~

Saturday, July 18, 2009

failblog~

Seriously. My blog's starting to go dead. Either I've been too lazy to blog, or I haven't really been bothered to blog. Anyway, been hanging out more with the class every since air rifle stopped activities. Which has been quite long, actually. Yup, anyway, been having some people with attitude the last two days. Friday, darrel didn't join us cause of don't know what, and today, vincent didn't join us cause of some arguement. Went to lavender food square today. Been there before once I think. Anyway, I guess it doesn't really matter where we go, cause it's still fun talking and whatever. Okay, I'm off now.~

Sleepy.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

away~

Haven't been blogging, haven't really been in the mood. Its wednesday, halfway through the week, and I'm getting scared at how some ppl are mugging already. Sian. Went to school today for dunno what. Math 2ble lecture in the morning, and that was pretty much it. PE wasn't much, or rather it was easily pon-able. triple gp, dt wasn't in school today, so it wasn't on. and a physics lecture. So, my class headed out to roxy for lunch. Left school at 1230, and spent quite a bit of time there talking a lot of rubbish.

Anyway, I've got a really irritating headache, and I feel like the insides of my head are squishy and shakeable around. Pain when I shake my head around though. zzz. Therefore, I shall go off now to get some sleep. Maybe a few hours would be nice. I'll probably be knocked out till 730pm. Cheers~

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Girls have issues. -.-

Saturday, July 11, 2009

New Shoes!~

Yay I have new sports shoes! Considering the old ones has a hole a few cm wide on the front. Now, just got to get used to them. :D Saturday. Woke up late, and wasted the day away. Haha. So fun. I'm going to sleep awhile now.

Friday, July 10, 2009

CTs over, finally~

For once, some major tests ends on a higher-than-normal note. Physics was relatively good, quite do-able, unless I was doing the wrong stuff while I thought I was right.

Haven't blogged for close to 2 weeks. Quite a record. Or rather, it wasn't that I didn't have time? More like I told myself I wouldn't blog till after CTs were over. (Yeah that's an excuse not to blog cause I'm LAZY. -.-

Okay I'm tired. But might still end up playing a game or two before sleeping. Haha. :)

Friday, June 26, 2009

optimus!~

Transformers ROCKS! Go watch it if you haven't yet! Go watch it again if you have! Haha! Okay I think I just like the fight scenes which are nice in the movie. The storyline has holes in it, but I still like it. Optimus! :D

Spent practically everyday of the last week out, either in school studying or in school studying. Caught transformers on thursdays, and it's awesome. Seriously. Oh right. And I know two girls who spend $20+ dollars on House of the Dead 4. Like, Woah. Haha. And Elroy got to try a Double Chocolate Ice Blended with Coffee Base from Coffee Bean. And he nearly suffocated. It really was quite strong. I'll be sticking with my banana chocolate, regardless. :P

Today, played badminton for the first time in a long time, and played for a whooping three hours+. I'm exhausted. Tomorrow will see me waking up in the afternoon. Yup.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

weirded out~

Apparently somehow I can pull off a ton of expressions and emotions at the same time, while looking normal at the same time. Studied in school today! Must have been the first time we were so open were school people actually see us so freely. At least in public places you know that you're not in school and won't meet school people you know every corner you turn. Haha.

Today was weird. Just weird. Somehow we encounter this kind of thing occasionally, but we always get through it. Appreciation, trust, understanding. And honesty.

Crap. I think I need to type a draft post (which I won't post up.) I need to reflect.

Anyway, before that, I did this quiz thing

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I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	9
Physical Touch:	8
Acts of Service:	5
Words of Affirmation:	5
Receiving Gifts:	3

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Take the Quiz!

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CT2s POSTPONED. THANK GOODNESS. I NEED TIME TO THINK. AND TO STUDY.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

O-R-Orin!~

OGL outing today! Okay, not really, considering only 6 turned up. Haha. But at least this amount was good for an outing, cause we all stayed together in one group, and not like one big group, then split into a few separate groups of people. We packed botak jones into a cinema and ate inside! shhh! Okay you didn't hear that. We watched "I Love You, Man", and it's super nice :) About the importance of having best friends of the same gender, even if you're in a relationship or something.

Taxi drivers are irritating! Zzz. Bus lanes with red and yellow solid lines means that only buses should be in the lane, you fools. Stay out of the damn lanes! Just cause you guys can line up 20 or so taxis queuing up for passengers at places like Centrepoint and Plaza Sing, doesn't mean you should. Giving so much trouble to the bus drivers, and slowing down bus traffic. Annoying buggers. Stay on your side of the road! Making my bus ride home about 15 mins longer than it had to be, cause my bus had to weave in and out of orchard road traffic, rather than going down smooth bus lanes. Grrr.

Don't dream too much. Sometimes nightmares get to you. And you waste potential energy dreaming! >< Instead, you could be using it something more productive :D Like studying for CT2s (Yeah, Right) Hahaha. Night guys. Or Rather, Morning!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

a point system?~

Got through quite a bit today. Seriously. Really made me think about what I've been doing all this while, and how I've been treating the people around me, especially those dearest to me. The thing is that now I know. And it's really up to me (although I don't really know how) to do something about it. First reaction to it all? I don't know. I guess maybe I just wasn't expecting that? Guys think slightly differently as compared to girls (did I just say 'slightly'? -.-). I guess I was a bit scared? The look that something was wrong? Communicating face to face still remains the best way to get through sticky situations. Yup. I guess it was a bit of luck I went down when I did. If not, it might have been different altogether. Anyway, it's settled down now. I think I prefer if problems are thrown out in the open. Although there might not always be a solution to them, at least there's some degree of understanding on it.

It's not exactly a good thing for a girl to take over a guy's phone, I'll tell you that. Firstly, you'll find yourself using some 20 smses. Secondly, the smses are directed to your friends. Thirdly, the smses don't sound like you, which makes your friends raise their eyebrows. The first isn't much of a problem. I guess I do have smses to spare. The second and third? Depends on who the smses are sent to. Haha =P

Met Shayne's friend, Tammie, today. She's quite a character. Haha okay she's nice, unique in a way too. Apparently she had some kind of point system for me. o.0 Yeeeah. And she kind of has her own problems, even as I'm typing this out. Okay, I really do think that guys are often on a totally different frequency as compared to girls. Sometimes we often expect them to be strong and resilient, just as guys generally are (at least, emotional stability), so we sometimes tend to do something insensitive? Sometimes leaving them alone, or talking to them in a different manner, etc. And we don't know it, but it does affect them.

Another day getting home late. Haha. I haven't been out for dinner and home before 10pm for quite awhile. (I used to use 10pm as a gauge whether I'm late in coming home.) Times change, things change. =P Had a pleasant surprise today too. :)

Times Change, Things Change :)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

funny people~

Headed down to national library to study one of the other days. Took a bus 12 from my house over. This bus was one of the newer models, you know those single deckers, purple handlebars, etc. Anyway, there was the bus driver there. Some old uncle, with a big smile on his face all the time. And at every stop, he would turn around and say 'bye' to the passengers getting off. That's some nice attitude. But I was thinking of studying more at the time. So I didn't even wave to him when I got off. Maybe I should have. Some bus drivers have attitude, but some are nice. This one was. Funny thing was, that no other passengers taking the bus waved or said 'bye' either. They just frowned at him looking back, with the expression on their face, obviously thinking "siao ah this bus driver."

Studied from 10 till around 4 at the study lounge. And there were at least 2 ppl who left their stuff there for at least 3 hours. Lame crap. Even if you're going for lunch, 3 hours? and the at 10 in the morning till around 2? (That was one guy. The other was around 11 to 3.) Annoying people who leave their stuff there to charger Nintendo DSs, PSPs, Laptops. Zzz.

Today, played street soccer in the morning with Jingwei and Co. Fun, but tiring. Getting tired to fast I think. Started raining around noon, so we had to stop. And I got a blister on my right little toe. Cause me and my mum glued and sewed a patch onto the shoe to close the hole there. Yup, result was that I got this stupid blister which opened up about half an hour into playing. Thankfully, I didn't unpack my triangular bandage from the first aid course the other time, so I wrapped up my toe and foot (no scissors to cut it smaller, so foot too) and continued. Not too bad for a makeshift cover I guess.

One of these days, when I start mugging a decent bit of chem, I'll go down to the library again, and sit there to complete the list of organic reactions. -.- Annoying holiday homework.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

??~

Nothing to blog cause there really hasn't been anything to blog about. I finished the first aid course, where the examiner was some joker o.0. Also, played a bit of badminton on tues, went gym on mon (why am I listing them backwards? -.-").

I haven't been able to study. Okay math is fine. I haven't touched chem or physics. Econs, I barely make it through a topic a day, and I just started on International Trade. Apart from barely making it through the topic, I barely remember it too. >< Econs.

>< I just stoned at the post for dunno how long. It's 10.05pm when i post this. See what time I started the post =o

Monday, June 08, 2009

first aid course~

Grah. Going into school needs you to sign in each time now. Each time. That means coming back into school from a lunch, you need to sign in again. Annoying. Anyway, the first aid course has been okay so far. It's really basics, more like how to contain a situation till an ambulance comes. Only if it isn't that serious (ambulance not required) then there's really something to do.

Yup, so learnt about circulatory problems, respiratory problems, how to help a choking person. I know how to do CPR now! Okay I don't know what to put here now. I'm Off~

Sunday, June 07, 2009

lazy and bored~

I'm getting unfit-er. >< Haven't exercised in ages. Haven't been on a long dist run since napfa, which must have been about 4-6 weeks ago. And I haven't really been able to sit down and study. My mind isn't up to it yet. So my studying sessions so far have just kind of failed.

Friday! Friday was a day of utter boredom and rubbish. Spent it studying out of the SAT book, getting totally astounded by the horribly cheem english words used, as well as getting scared of the paper on Saturday.

Yup, so Saturday morning was spent at the Starhub Center at Cuppage doing the paper. 10 sections, 8 of which are 25 mins long. 1 which was 20 mins long, and the last was 10 mins. I guess it was okay? Math parts (4 of them) were okay. I'd probably get at most 3 questions wrong. The Language part! Grrr. So many cheem words. To think I converse in english most of the time. Totally stunned by some of the questions.

Darrel and Vincent came over in the afternoon for a bit, before we headed out to dinner with some others of the class. Went to some place in Chinatown, where 7 of the 8 dishes we ordered were spicy! One was a pot of pork and veg soaked in oil to the brim. >< Okay, all dishes there were oily. You could see a layer of oil across the top of each dish. Quite disgusting, especially the feeling after the meal. I don't like spicy food, although i can take it to some extent. Definitely better as compared to vincent, whose dinner comprised of the rice, one piece of each of the dishes, and half of the non-spicy dish, which was a veg, kang kong. Quite sad for him. And I had to pay $20. Even though I mentioned before I didn't want to spend more than $15. Grah. Annoying. Cutting into my pocket. ><

Today was spent something like Friday. So I won't talk about it.

I realise I forget a lot of what I've said previously. Like I don't remember what I said a few posts back, etc.

Anyway, next 3 days is the first aid course. 9 till 4.30pm each day. I'll probably wind up getting to school early, and throwing in about an hour plus of studying in the morning each day. =P

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Past, present, perfect~

"That was the best present you could give me." Haha. Don't worry, I won't do that again until you're more comfortable with it. Glad to make your day~

There's nothing wrong with not saying something cool. It doesn't always have to be like in the movies. =P Movies are unique cases which could almost never happen in real life, cause it's either stupid, or not possible. Of course, it's always possible to say something cool or mushy to make it sound nice and all. But it isn't neccessary.

SATs on Sat. Uhoh. I'm scared of the essay part, some of the critical writing bit, and some of the math parts, including graphs transformations which I need to study tomorrow. >< Tomorrow's a day to mug SATs.

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Matt Nathanson - Come On Get Higher

I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the sound of your voice
Loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love

I miss the pull of your heart
I taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

Sing sha la la la
Sing sha la la la la

Ooo Ooo Ooo...
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love

It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works in your arms.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

small, small, but a part of it all~

I don't know what Mr Lim's been driving at recently. There's probably a prefectly logical plan behind it all. But still, I feel like a chesspiece being used. Speaking of which, I hate that feeling, and kinda got pissed when I receive a message at 1pm going like this:

"Esmond. Play badminton later at 3 at bedok sports hall. Bring rackets and shuttles. Thanks"

"you cannot ah?"

"Oh until what time. :-o can la can la."

"why cannot :-o thought you got racket in school also. Lol"

"Lol cause we last minute decide. Then just book this morning already."

"Can la es:) you free anyway aren't you"

":-( wogay."

Bringing me close to cursing. Treating me like I'm some disposable object. 2 hours notice given, then talking like I'm some space filler. Book in the morning, tell me in the morning la. Basket. Then treating me like some best buddy when you've never invited me for such thing before. Expecting me to bring equipment in 2 hours time too. Call yourself a friend? Didn't even ask somemore. Talking in some tone like instructing me to do stuff. grr. Just ruining my day huh? And you're still oblivious to it. Doesn't really matter if I put this all up, you probably won't visit here anyway.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Pes B~

Before anything, hear my story! Haha y'all probably wonder how I winded up in Pes B and not Pes A. I might even wind up down Pes in army. Eczema. Dermatitis. Whatever, anyway, it's better for me not to stay out in hot weather cause my neck, for one, would get really itchy and I'd wind up with a rash or something. Yup, mainly that's the reason.

Anyway, medical checkup. It's pretty much expected. Photo taking, filling in details, urine test, draw blood, hearing test, x-ray, dental, ECG, height and weight, blood pressure measuring, meeting the MO, and doing the test thing. I still hate needles. Gah taking away so much of my blood. And I think the guy taking my blood was a newbie or something, cause I got poked twice. Zzz. Just looking away helps though. =X

Went to check if it's still there. And it is! Went down there after the checkup. I won't say where or it'll ruin the surprise =p

Jing Wei's gonna be ordering shirts from Threadless soon I think? And I think he won't mind me advertising here, whether anyone else wants to join in (it's just to cover the shipping cost.) Designs can be seen at "www.threadless.com". I'm still considering though.

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Continuing on from my previous post, it really is all about understanding and trust I think? Trusting the person enough to be unafraid to share your thoughts, to share how you feel. And also, being unafraid of opening up and being embarassed to talk, cause at least you know you did. And if the person understands, then there wouldn't be anything wrong at all. It'd all be fine :)