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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Okay i've gone all angsty and emo today... coz it was crappy. maths : functions, chinese : unknown, Physics: Dynamics, LA : Sciences and arguements... blahblahblah

then i get shot down by 3 things today.

R-paper results
Mr Chow / SC
PT

Okay, my Rpapers werent so good, big deal (thats what i thought at that time, but now it adds on to the stress)

Then Mr Chow is pissed im running for sc? yes, i was probably who he thought would be the next chairman of arc, i suppose. but i do have the right to go for what i wish to do. of course if it doesnt work out, i'd run for the spot for chairman.

And PT, yes it was totally messed up, mainly due to lack of attendance.

Or maybe i should have done more...

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So... Where Did I Go Wrong?

Sunday, January 28, 2007

And Soon We All Fall Off The Beds.

Grah, so anyway, went to school in the morning, climbed in with some eugene, shunyuan, kevin, ahmad, loaded the bus, went down to Yishun SAFRA, shot, had lunch at northpoint, stayed there to support, played CS at the LAN shop there, played pool there, went to 7/11 for a mr.softee, stayed, went back to school, unloaded, went with daniel, zihui, eugene, eunice, debby, du jing to thaipan for dinner.

my mouth is sore la, i have, (how to type??) owsers. due to my braces. eating hurts like hell, so im hoping the next few days/week if neccessary, passes asap.

as for shooting, 520/600
cant believe it la...
(a series is 10 shots, each shot can be worth a max of 10 points)
series 1 = 81
series 2 = 90
series 3 = 86
series 4 = 85
series 5 = 88
series 6 = 90

coz we arrived there late, no time for warming up... so, i got that stupid 81... and i seem to keep getting 9s and barely any tens. its likely if u put it together on one card, i'd make a circle around the ten dot.

520... 4th of the rifles guys from vj, daniel with 556, zhangyang with 524, ahmad with 521. wahlao still got an ahmad suan-ing me coz he beat me by one point.oh ya, vj made up 20% of the guy rifle shooters, and we got.... the bottom most 20% ranking! weehee... lol at least we know they r national shooters, and we got to see the shooters who won medals for singapore recently last year like on shaw ming and vanessa yong. like, wow they r so pro.... gotta inspire to be like them... XD

oh ya, as for CS, i played with shengy and kevin.

eh i really haven't played for 1 year plus la...

well, ended up me against them two. total score (includes swapping of teams midway through) for kills and deaths for me= 104 - 42 lol. their total kills was 102. both la... lol personal fave combo of weapons.
1) Magnum Sniping Rifle
2) B-1-3 (unknown pistol name)
3) equipment (kevlar+helmet, HE, flash grenades)

OH And SAFRA is so cool la, today they had this monthly suprise thing la, then, it was=
simulation with the M16 rifles. shiok leh!!!! and fun XD a bit heavy, we were using the rifle, prone position. then reloading is also manual. there was recoil from firing also! it's really cool + realistic.

cant wait for next month's, its gonna be so fun.
~~
Striving To Do My Very Best.

Friday, January 26, 2007

damn unfair stuff...

convo i heard while going down the stairs after school.

"okay, i already know who i'm gonna vote for."

like wtf? u haven't even heard what everyone has to say!!! zomg. an example of the bias-ness of democracy.

Workers Party ------- PAP
30% 10% 60%
the median voters.
like mr yang said again, lol, its about swaying that 10% in between who really care about the community.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Okay, since i don't really update everyday anymore, i try to as much as i can.

anyway, monday was okay, except that it was kinda freaky when we went down to the bishan childcare centre to visit the kids, well, the 4 of us, me, lemuel, en wei and shengy were in charge of 6 kids, where we gotta teach them how to read. according to the principal, 2 of them were harder to work with, so me and lem took the 2 of them while en wei and shengy took 2 each. Well, they're kinda cute la, but then the kid i took, mark, is damn quiet... so i tried to read him this book called (dont laugh) :"the crayon box that talked". lol, at least i know he likes 2 things, colours and cars. lol, so, after the book, we did drawing, with colours and drawing cars. okay, a bit lame la, but then the kid's in nursery leh :S

walked from there to bishan mrt after that, and guess what? we saw Guo Wei walking to the area for his tuition. we're like, zomg lol.

tuesday, today. okay ss in the moring, mr yang was hilarious coz of his "war stories" and "serving the nation" stuff.

cephas was like: "do u use real guns?"
mr yang :"of course! if not then what? super soakers?"

and there was another story about medics. when u're a medic, nv choose a newb partner to work with, coz when practicing jabs, if kanna wrong spot then will keep on having to do again, and again, and again... lol

oh wellz, then he told me i got RM. haha XD FPSP about future problem solving and stuff.

but then...

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Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

[Chorus]
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

[Chorus x 2]

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Okay yesterday was a waste of time, sort of. so.. trying, not succeeding to crash the og bbq. wasted the entire of last night.

this morning, went back over the somerset to get my braces tightened and the installment of braces on my bottom set of teeth. Note to eunice: how can you like the pain from braces?!? -.-"

back to porridge for a while again i guess.

and what's to make this weekend a bit worse. the timing of elections within the ip. and i thought that the sc elections would be way after the selection of class comm members. i'd guess some ppl know what i'd want to run for, however, i think i'll be asking mr boy for advice on this.

Grah..

Ironic. The word verification thing below the posting area... the letters are

gdvize... good advice? i need it.
~~

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Thursday, January 18, 2007

hmm, school juz started. why is my schedule so packed? lets see 4th day of actual classes and 3 projects underway. A couple assignments, yeea...

well, out of the holidays, back to being in class. badminton and such. Being a shoulder for people when in need, which has already happened more than once. Well, one of those reads my blog, and the other, well, doesn't =P

anyway, i hope i've been helpful is supporting or being supportive. (this may require contextual knowledge) haiz. i've made mistakes in the past too.

Back to the old, another song for another situation.

~~

Yellowcard - Believe

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive

But you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing, only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring it down alive

And you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

(Again today, we take into our hearts and minds those who perished on this site one year ago, and also those who came to toil in the rubble to bring order out of chaos, to help us make sense of our despair)

Wanna hold my wife when I get home
Wanna tell the kids they'll never know how much I love to see them smile
Wanna make a change or two right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day

(The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here)

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

grah... even as we move into the second year as IP... things juz get harder. well, take today for example. start the day with a double social studies followed by a double PE, which teachers always say: "aiya, go run. if not for your own good, at least good for cross country coming up." like, zomg, cross country is eons away. then, a triple language arts. and u know what? a break and then a triple bio. okay, at least we're used to triple lang arts. but a triple bio?!? seriously, scramble my brains and give me an omlette.

oh wellz, at least this year we have lessons which are 1 period long, thus not having much time for in depth analysis of the subject / topic, which is totally hateful at times.

wheehee, okay new intake coming in tmr. approx. 28 ppl, 20 of them ips. so... those in arc, if ya see this by today, go down tmr! cya

Sunday, January 14, 2007

well, yes i'm using a post to talk about anonymous tags.
yes they are always irritating,
yes we may not know who they are,

but then, you can always look at things in a positive way.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Shit my post which was about to be posted got deleted so i wont do it anymore, for now as im super tired.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Okay, juz in case, i gotta ask, what happens if u fail an R paper =P jkjk anyway, okay they're all over! *Jumps up and down*

tomorrow's the sunrice cooking thing... Here's where i gotta be careful of getting food poisoning. can never be too careful, especially when it comes down to US cooking.

anyway, the CCA walkabout today, funny coz we cant take it a lot of j1s this year and only ips, so that means about 30 j1s are gonna be dissapointed + a large portion of those signing up as ip as well =P

okay thats the crappy ending of today's post, but i have no idea what else to type, so, bye!

Monday, January 01, 2007

And here we go. 2007. With this, we bid farewell to year 2006. Memories left behind, starting off again. Moving on to IP 2 then, unknowingly until the IPO. Going as photographers, along with kevin and ahmad, realising with a start, that them being, IP 1s, we were officially entering the second year at VJC.

R papers in 2 days. Lang Arts and Social Studies are hard to study for, not having done much revision the past 2 months.

note to shengy: i'm working on the gunbound design already. pm me or something =)

~~

My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

And So We Enter 2007.

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home