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    Sunday, May 27, 2007

    the monthly shoot then.
    arrived at school early in the morning.
    standardized the rifle cases.
    mr chow = silenced.
    haha.

    anyway.
    watched as the 6 details went past.
    the entire day.

    zhang yang shot.
    he's going to the US tmr.
    part of my group.
    and he beat daniel.

    mr chow lent me this visualisation book thingy.
    come to think about it, it helps.
    some of it we already know, subconciously.
    most of it we don't know.
    don't know how it would help us.
    now i know.

    so today,
    kenneth had fun. 570
    coach shot also. series of 92, 94, 96, 97
    two people said they wanted to die o.0
    pflug hit his 500.

    i'll blog either tmr, no time now.
    if not, in one week.
    bye for now =P

    Saturday, May 26, 2007

    hmmhmm.

    morning, training, supposed to do 20 shots of 10. every 7 = +2 more tens, every 6 = +4 more tens.
    ended up owing 28 tens.
    grah.
    packed up the equipment to bring to safra, to hometeam.
    mr chow got totally worked up.

    about 3 pm. went to yoshinoya for lunch.
    bought a drink for the cheap place near it.
    60 cents for a can of soya bean.
    and i paid for it with a 50 dollar note.
    0.0
    i seriously had no change.

    so.. went to mph to get masking tape.
    should be enough for a while now =X
    4 pm. rushed home.
    5pm rushed out with my family.
    watched macbeth. -.- talk about sian.
    sian to the power n.

    yawnz.
    tmr's hectic.
    hopefully mr chow's in a better mood.

    Friday, May 25, 2007

    as the past 2 days have been quite sian, i shall only blog about today =)

    finally, a day of rest from school. finally, a full day.
    exactly halfway through the year.
    is this all to expect anymore?
    half the year gone. one half day, one full day.
    i don't really know what to expect anymore.

    pretrip session still went on though.
    target end time = 1030
    actual end time = 1200++

    zzz

    therefore, me and zhangyang took a taxi down to taka to join up for jts.
    ms ng went, mr chow didnt.
    a big wow though.
    ms ng blended in with us o.0
    haha.
    mr chow went for match support. basketball.

    ate a lot, continued cooking food to eat even as everyone ended up gathering at our table to play zou zi mi ma. can see stunned faces, esp chiuyee (probably did the "faint" emoticon)

    shengy left halfway. a bulk of people didnt come.
    to name a few:
    kevin, pflug, kwan wei, gerald, jonathan, xin chen, jing rong, yuki, leanne, audrey, etc.
    24 shooters present, practically all seniors.

    anyway, was really full after that,
    the guys went to the library to read comics,
    girls went shoppin*cough* window shopping
    ended up only 6 of the whole group went to watch the soccer finals.

    what a waste.
    a simple mistake, regrets lasting forever.
    1-0. a lost. basketball won though. they brought the trophy to jalan besar.
    after.
    tears i see in so many eyes.
    though truthfully, the linesman was a total jerk,
    no comments, life is never fair is it?

    so ends the bulk of the sports teams games
    a disappointment, overall.
    lots of disappointments.

    got back home after that.
    brain feeling all blur and stuff.

    ah shucks.
    it IS the last day of school after all.
    nothing to do now,
    not even having any feelings about today.
    a day of ups and downs.

    its our turn next.
    we won't disappoint.
    it'll be better than last year.
    that, i promise.

    Thursday, May 24, 2007

    its been quite a while since i had a laugh.
    not just a laugh to keep u there for a few minutes,
    but rather something which lasted days,
    putting me in a good mood for those days,
    making me smile to remember it.

    so... today passed quite fast.
    it wasn't a half day, but i ended formal classes at 12.45
    only that i had to do some other stuff (pretrip, SIP, etc.)

    wanted to train at first.
    but i couldnt take it.
    couldnt take the smell.
    stupid cat.
    out of the suit,
    i felt worse than i did on tuesday.
    suffocating.
    had to regain my senses when out of the range,
    before going to report it at the office.

    finished off the important part of SIP.
    hah.


    To one who reads my blog often, specifically:
    Don't make a rash decision, led by anger, led by sadness.
    And if you choose to do so, just hope you won't regret it.
    Losing out here would mean losing the other anchor keeping you in place.
    Once the first is gone, what will you turn to?
    But in the end, it's not my choice to make.

    ~~

    Yellowcard - How I Go


    Tuesday, May 22, 2007

    what a horrible day.
    exhausting.

    managed to stay awake for the second consecutive ss lesson. whee.

    PE = played hard fast badminton for a full hour. energy depleted.

    classes. lang arts, 3 periods = free periods.
    bio = bio class. grah.

    played contract bridge with elroy jourdan may after that.
    won 3 consecutive games. lost 1, won 1, and lost the last one.
    found out that may has a natural high when it comes to card games.

    trained after that.
    practically died.
    don't even know how i managed 30 shots.
    my 10 shot grouping made 2 big holes in the card.
    my best card came to = ten. stray 8. ten. stray 8. ten.
    thats practically a 50% stray shot rate.
    felt totally giddy.
    stumbled out of the suit then.
    funny.
    mr chow bought me a root beer. o.0
    anyway, rested a bit.
    managed to stay alive and ended up playing pandora's phone's bubble pop game.

    grah.

    Monday, May 21, 2007

    whee.

    got hold of linkin park's minutes to midnight. woots.
    awesome songs.
    but interesting. dark, mysterious-ish songs.
    different from the past LP.

    oh well. ahha.

    ~~

    The Old. Meteora.


    The New. Minutes To Midnight.

    Sunday, May 20, 2007

    always see these chinese comprehension passages, telling you to stay strong, don't do bad things, study hard. and also giving examples.

    but then, it's practically not possible to live this ideal, perfect life.

    study hard = good grades?

    not necessarily.

    grah.

    irritating chinese.

    possibly, it's there to make you jealous that ppl can be perfect.

    i'm irritated.

    Thursday, May 17, 2007

    yawn. darn its 11+ again. need to try sleep at 10+ next time(s).grr.

    today,
    maths and chinese passed pretty fast.
    physics = mr boy brought this *energy ball*, forgot what's it called, which has static electricity.

    it lights up florescent light bulbs and halogen light bulbs when placed near o.0

    learned how charges can flow through people.

    why?

    context: i sit nearest to the teacher's table
    mr boy: okay, esmond, can you be the source?
    me: okay....

    gotta hold the energy sphere while the current passes through me, and other people, before it lights up a halogen bulb. o.0 managed to get 10 people.

    as for me, kept on having to use different parts of my hand to touch the sphere, kept having to touch different parts of the sphere due to a growing intense heat.

    me = hands numb after the activity. grah.

    other than that, mr boy also put aluminum foil on it, and asked people to get electrocuted o.0



    the range got an improvement.
    new table.
    new clothes racks.
    new clocks.
    new barricades.

    slept there for about an hour after training. whee.
    ~~

    Tuesday, May 15, 2007

    relief.
    and pain.

    i might like running, but i hate stitches, which i always get.
    but thats why i want to run. to fight the stitches which i get.

    napfa, got a gold as compared to the silver last year.
    last year's was due to running, and a stitch.
    this year, ran through it. grah.
    my knees hurt.

    went to ICA to collect my passport.
    biometric passport now o.0
    coz i lost my previous passport -.-

    anyway, it was super crowded, but thats not the point.
    the point is, i waited for 450 positions. 2950 ---- ---- ---- 3395. o.0
    and that was me using 2 and a half hours.
    managed to get a seat, and slept for about half of the waiting time.
    uncomfortable though.
    grrr, waiting time is irritating.

    Sunday, May 13, 2007

    13th may.
    mothers day.

    lol, woke up at 10.50.
    five seconds later, my dad called. o.0
    i'm pro, wake up just on time =)

    anyway, did work throughout the afternoon
    got my holiday revision schedule done, chinese (bleh) etc.

    so, for mother's day, bought my mum these two nice mini-pillows
    words on them
    1) the world's greatest mom (mother, madre, [and other stuff which i forgot])
    2) Live Well, Laugh Often, Love Much

    went out for dinner, tony romas. ribs and steak.
    me and my bro paid for most of it (our pockets aren't THAT deep) o.0

    so now, my wallet's quite empty.
    oh well.

    at least my mum's happy.
    it's been quite a while since the last time. haiz

    such... complicated-cy (if there's such a word)
    nvm.

    great. i'm depressed again. grr.

    ~~

    Sum 41 - I'm Not The One



    Welcome to obsession
    It makes the world go round
    We're made up by the people we surround
    So!
    We live and die for shit we don't need
    Well maybe, it's the price of envy

    Through these eyes I look out for me
    But everyone fades in ways who don't see
    Nothing's gonna change
    Why!
    We're going down in flames
    So!
    I'm not the one

    Don't wait for me
    Cause I won't just sit by
    While you just bleed
    Myself and others dry
    Don't wait for me
    To be there in the end
    When you don't see
    The truth you just pretend
    Don't wait for me

    What is the solution
    We don't already know
    There's no telling how far this could go
    No!
    You do your time punch in it's the same
    Cause you're just
    Part of this game

    There's nothing you can do to save yourself
    You leave your life in the hands of someone else
    They'll never let it go
    Why!
    It's the only way you know
    Know!
    I'm not the one

    Don't wait for me
    Cause I won't just sit by
    While you just bleed
    Myself and others dry
    Don't wait for me
    To be there in the end
    When you don't see
    The truth you just pretend
    Don't wait for me

    When did we begin
    To let ourselves give in
    How'd it come to this
    Miserable bliss

    Just take the rest of
    Just take the best of me
    Just take the rest of
    Just take the best of me

    You take the rest of me
    Just take the best of me
    You take the rest of me
    Just take the best

    Don't wait for me
    Cause I won't just sit by
    While you just bleed
    Myself and others dry
    Don't wait for me
    To be there in the end
    When you don't see
    The truth you just pretend
    Don't wait for me

    Saturday, May 12, 2007

    coach changed my position.
    therefore,

    me = felt like fainting after 10, no, eight shots.
    me = had to sit out for 15 minutes
    me = shot 8.4 instead.
    me = entire left back felt dead. just dead.

    grah.


    went to parkway for lunch, bought something for mother's day, and also helped shengy buy something for priscilla. (birthday 15th may)

    oh well.

    it just started raining.
    i'm exhausted.

    Friday, May 11, 2007

    Don't Eat Meltz At KFC!

    Not worth it.
    a rip off.
    me = stomach ache.

    grah.

    pain.

    rm.. is .. dead.. woots.

    Thursday, May 10, 2007

    bleh.

    i'm so rushed at the moment.

    haven't heard from ica about my passport
    being so far behind schedule for fpsp rm.

    rushed on other stuff as well.
    national's in june, barely 6 weeks left.
    what's more, there being a 1 week break due to indieventure.
    standard's gonna drop. which would leave 3 weeks left after that to patch it up.

    somehow i feel like asking yang if i can drop rm.
    using up the time which i could use well, unlike the 340-450 time slot where we end up going over undone work. true we've been unable to get fpsp done, but then...

    grah.

    Wednesday, May 09, 2007

    grah.

    so thats what happens when you have access to several blogs at once.

    you post something meant for blog A on blog B. -.-

    ~~

    anyway, i'd like to continue regarding sum 41.
    best parts of their songs are...
    the totally awesome guitar rifts.
    really makes you wonder how they manage to play it so well, so fast.

    oh well.

    ct investiture.
    chinese.
    physics.
    3 periods of lang arts (same thing happened as before)

    stayed in the range doing all kinds of stuff.

    physics homework.
    putting the no eating/drinking sign back up
    putting the motivational posters up
    team meeting, minimised
    helped some ppl out for their training as well as getting their suit for training (A div guys rifle shooters all at hometeam)
    collected some money for JTS
    returned money for jersey leftovers
    etc.etc

    found out go some kinda quarrel which went on and i didn't even know about it.

    oh well.

    guitar rift!!!

    ~~

    Sum 41 - The Bitter End



    there's no doubt in my mind when it's over
    what is done will be
    you will find when life gets colder there's no sympathy
    there's no point trying you can't escape the bitter end
    well who will greet you when you're at the bitter end

    all your choices chosen you've got no say
    your decisions made
    face your consequences as your life begins to fade
    as time keeps spinning closer to the bitter end
    well who will greet you when you're at the bitter end

    take a look at yourself as time keeps racing
    is all you've come to be
    what you expected or are you still chasing possibilities
    cause all your prayers won't save you from the bitter end
    well who will greet you when you're at the bitter end

    Tuesday, May 08, 2007

    Sum 41. Chuck.
    It seems like such a long time ago.

    Nevertheless, the album rocks.
    all the songs.
    and i have it.

    =)

    today. monday.
    morning was a health check, turns out i missed 3 injections somehow. zzz
    PE, napfa. 5 stations. grades = AAAAB
    the B was standing broad jump.

    on to language arts and bio after that.
    (i sit facing the back, away from the teacher.)

    me: listens to class. dozes off.
    Ms Yaduv: continues.
    me: wakes up, listens for 5 seconds. makes a comment about politics (the topic), which i forgot what.
    Ms Yaduv: "exactly."
    me: hehe, turns back around, sleepy....

    woah. haha.

    watched the range undergo the renovation part. its gonna continue to tomorrow.
    watched the A div guys load up to go to hometeam for their trials.

    apparently our rifle range's shooting section has a gradual elevation, with the change in "y" being 1.5 inches. like "wow".

    oh well.

    ~~

    Sum 41 - Noots



    Today is too late
    How long do we have to wait
    Oh no, I think she knows
    That's why I can't let go
    I feel this burning inside
    A feeling that no one should know
    This could be so good again
    I'd wait here till then
    But not with this
    So now I'll leave with

    No apologies
    I never thought you'd be so
    Easily deceived
    Now I'll just hang my head (I'm falling further out of place)
    While I walk with the dead (all the lies I can't erase)
    I'll just hang my head

    We're mad with regret
    Memories that we'll both forget
    So far it's been so hard
    To cover up these scars
    I see this falling apart
    It's easy to just let it go
    No luck between us both
    So I keep waiting
    But not with this
    So now I'll leave with

    No apologies
    I never thought you'd be so
    Easily deceived
    Now I'll just hang my head (I'm falling further out of place)
    While I walk with the dead (all the lies I can't erase)
    I'll just hang my head

    What's left to show
    It's so bad but I got to know
    What's right don't know
    How to find it out on my own

    One by one, we both fall down
    Who's the first one to hit the ground now
    What's worse to kick or fall
    Or be suss standing alone
    I'll keep your promises if you
    Take back every thing I said
    I find its got so cold now
    What I've lost my heart and soul

    No apologies
    I never thought you'd be so
    Easily deceived
    Now I'll just hang my head (I'm falling further out of place)
    While I walk with the dead (all the lies I can't erase)
    I'll just hang my head

    Hang my head.

    ~~

    By The Way. If you guys didn't know, "Noots" is in the soundtrack of the first Fantastic Four movie.

    Cheers.

    hmmhmm, in class now.

    the only one in class now.

    and i'm totally bored -.- can't believe it.

    oh well =P

    grah radioblog isn't really THAT updated o.0

    Sunday, May 06, 2007

    hmm.

    i actually have nothing to say now o.0

    whee radio

    now:
    gwen stefani - the sweet escape

    =S

    Saturday, May 05, 2007

    hmm. friday. didnt have rm. got hold of steps 4 and 5. barely even did 1, 2 or 3.
    zzz.

    saturday. training. did 20 grouping, actually quite good except for the 3 strays.
    then was asked to do 5 shots within the 8 ring on the same card.
    no idea what was going on.
    what felt good when off a lot.
    didnt complete that part.
    went on to the 40 shot test.
    was doing quite well.
    shot more than normal amount of 10s.
    around 25 shots in.
    same thing happened like the 5 shot 8 ring above.
    shot 2 sixes, 3 sevens in all.
    wasted 12 points (assuming i get nines for those shots)
    i did a 358/400. (8.95)
    when it could have been a 370? (9.25)
    !!zzz

    walking out of school with kailiang junjie enwei shermaine kevin shengchow and chiuyee.
    had the plan to go for lunch (around 3+ pm).
    shermaine had to go off.
    ended up going with kevin shengy and chiuyee to parkway.
    others went to tp i think.
    ate kfc, 2.75 for shrooms meal and a small fries.
    o.0 got away with 1.70.

    at kfc:
    me: washing hands.
    kfc cleaner: pours coke which ppl didnt drink into the basin WHILE i was washing my hands.
    me: pulls hands out of basin till it drained away.
    o.0

    went to buy my guitar string which broke in the morning.
    funny how we went into the store holding 2 guitars.

    went off after that.

    on the bus back.
    realised something.
    kailiang junjie enwei etc. went to tp
    shengy kevin and chiuyee could have gone to tp too.

    thanks.

    ~~

    Good Charlotte - Something Else



    She is a diamond, I am a stone
    I come from nowhere, she's been to Rome
    Her daddy's a lawyer and mines not around
    She has good manners, I'm rough all around

    But you could come from something, you could come from nothing
    You could be a princess, you could be a working man
    But in the end...

    We all want something else (We all want something else)
    We all want something we can't have
    We all want something else (We all want something else)
    We all want something strange to us
    Maybe a roll in the dirt, or it's a seat in first class
    We all want something we can't have.

    She wants to go to restaurants in Beverly Hills and people stare
    But I don't care it's just what she grew up around.
    She drags me to parties where people ask me where I went to college
    She knows damn well I barely finished school.
    She knows a lot about yearly salaries and trust funds and dividends
    She knows that I don't really care at all
    But we got together and it's working ok

    You could come from something, you could come from nothing
    You could be a princess, you could be a working man
    But in the end...

    We all want something else (We all want something else)
    We all want something we can't have
    We all want something else (We all want something else)
    We all want something strange to us
    Maybe a roll in the dirt, or it's a seat in first class
    We all want something we can't have.

    Well you can spend your whole life looking for something,
    Something that might be right in front of your eyes,
    but you'll be looking for something else you'll never find.

    We all want something else (All want something else)
    We all want something we can't have
    We all want something else (All want something else)
    We all want something strange to us
    We all want something else (All want something else)
    We all want something we can't have
    We all want something else (All want something else)
    We all want something strange to us
    Maybe a roll in the dirt, or it's a seat in first class
    We all want something we can't have.

    Thursday, May 03, 2007

    went over to zi hui's blog. decided to do the colorgenics thingy.

    its really freaky o.0

    but to think about it.. its true.

    ~~

    At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

    You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

    Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!

    For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

    You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

    call it being stupid.
    call it wishful thinking.
    call it day dreaming.

    i call it believing.

    Wednesday, May 02, 2007

    Do or die, you'll never make me
    Because the world will never take my heart
    Go and try, you'll never break me
    We want it all, we wanna play this part
    I won't explain or say I'm sorry
    I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
    Give a cheer for all the broken
    Listen here, because it's who we are
    I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
    Just a boy, who had to sing this song
    I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
    I! don't! care!

    We'll carry on.

    ~~

    and on we go.

    sigh...
    seriously messed up.

    Tuesday, May 01, 2007

    Seriously, The Radio Rocks.
    98.7 fm

    dan ong, young, shan, carrie and muttons
    0.0
    fun.

    continuous flow of music XD
    along with that bit of humor from the host.
    esp. dan and young XD

    okay nvm.
    yay i did my chinese zhuo wen.
    restrung my guitar.
    prep-ed the speech.
    did physics song.
    stoned the afternoon away.
    bored. actually bored. wow.

    oh well.

    radio's playing mcr now. (irrelevant comment)

    im gonna play my guitar =P