without music, life would be~

Monday, August 27, 2007

It's No Longer A Time For Blogging Now Is It?
Sing For The Moment.
Bleed It Out Later.
Fall Out, And Into Oblivion.
And, Listen to The Story.

No more blogging then.
not for a while.
unless something comes along.
something.

really wish i could make myself just rush. 5 weeks being counting down now.
the holidays will be quite relieving, know that i'll be able to study well.

ah shucks.
bye. not for at least a week i think.

Let Me Light Up The Sky.

Friday, August 24, 2007

I'd trade this weakness, this fear, for anything else.
to look deep and not be afraid,
to talk and not feel nervous,
to be on even footing.

And still,
after such a long while...
~~
finished off physics in EA period, pretty satisfied with it i suppose.
got back the other half of the ss paper, found out i fail the "whole" paper by half a mark.
in other words, getting 49%. But i suppose i'm grateful for the econs bit, due to my previous assignment being 13/30. As for geog, well, definitely could have been better, but then again, it's all about the skill based questions isn't it?

maybe i'll actually be able to get some well deserved rest tomorrow before getting more work done, studying for physics, though its not really a lot, etc. before the night event.

apparently i'm once more faced with a decision between class and club. one of the most irritating problems since the middle of last year, especially when i get insulted for just trying to be fair as much as i can.

all the small things.
which make a person stressed out.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

A Classic mix.

~~

Green Day and Oasis - Boulevard of Broken Songs

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do (I walk alone, I walk alone)
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now (I walk alone, I walk alone)

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Every day I wake up and it's Sunday
Whatever's in my head won't go away
The radio is playing all the usual
And what's a wonderwall anyway

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you (I walk alone, I walk alone)
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do (I walk alone, I walk alone)

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do

Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

Because maybe
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me (You're gonna be the one that saves me)
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating (You're gonna be the one that saves me)
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me (You're gonna be the one that saves me)
'Til then I walk alone

Sing with me (sing)
Sing for the year (sing)
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

somehow, i'm feeling rather irritated at the moment.
then again, what i saw the other day, it's right.
it isn't the bigger drawbacks which pull people down,
but rather the small things in life, the problems which they barely notice,
which slowly weakens them.

coming to think about it,
there really are dozens of things which lead me to be frustrated, to feel down, all which are totally mundane.
i'll probably collapse soon.

Monday, August 20, 2007

interesting.
found out today i failed lang arts and got an A for physics.
somehow, i'm really amused.
maybe it's the way i take in failure.
though my response to failure on a case-by-case basis.
o.0

~~

Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Sunday, August 19, 2007

and once more, we're back at this fateful day.
this most ~~unfortunate~~ no, never unfortunate day.
how naive i was.
how long ago it seemed.

~~

Yellowcard - Rough Landing, Holly

Left the ground
In black and white
And when the plane went down
The colors all around
I know by now
The margin's slight
And still I can't get out, she's all I think about, can't let her go
It's who you know

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go
Let her go

She moves fast,
Takes control and like a heart attack I know I can't turn back
And time just passed
Nights moved slow
And she was all I had, I thought I'd never last, can't let her go
It's who you know

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go
Let her go

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go
Let her go

She calls out the farther that I fly
I love that sound so give me one more line
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go
Let her go
Let her go
Let her go

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Funeral For A Friend - Into Oblivion (reunion)

The days I've felt alone.
And the sea, it brings me back again.
So that I can see my wife.
And I can see my child.
Home, I'm home, it never changes,
Same old faces, same old places.

I stared into oblivion and found my home.
I stared into oblivion, into oblivion.

Find in me the home
That you have never known.
Find in us the faith.
The faith to bring you home.

I stared into oblivion and found my home.
I stared into oblivion and found my home.
I stared into oblivion, and found my own reflection there.
(reflection there)

Home. Now that I'm coming home,
Will you be the same as when I saw you last?
Tell me how much time has passed? x3

I stared into oblivion (and found my home).
I stared into oblivion (and found my home).
I stared into oblivion (and found my home).
I stared into oblivion and found my own reflection there.

~~

suddenly it seems like there's a lot of work to do.
zomg.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Why do i base it all on trust?
On Trust.
Loyalty.
Belief.

Maybe sometimes not doing anything is better than trying at all.
Sometimes its like sailing up a waterfall.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

"Did you think we'd be staying in five star hotels?
Finding a Horcrux every other day?"
It's Not All Easy Going.

grah.
so i failed ms toh's section of ss.
funny that i'm still above class average.
and that my class scores the highest averages in the cohort for everything but ss.
half a mark above average.
average? 10/25.
and i'm still scared of mr wong's part, come to think of it.
didn't do so well for his previous assignment.
(the assignment and the test are the same format.)

and chem?
wow. 43?47?48? (not quite sure) % of the entire cohort failed it.
wee.
how crazy.
anyway, nearly made it for that one.
at least i learned one lesson.
don't answer chem in the style of answering ss WRAITEC.
(give X number of answers since the qn is worth X marks.)

supposed to have 3ple lang arts and 3ple bio today.
amazingly, ms yadav wasn't in school today (mr boy took the class for 2 periods)
and there was no bio! o.0
so, school "ended" rather early.
ah shucks.
really should go get some work done.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

http://www.zinious.com/dnd.php

go do this quiz.
quite interesting.
well, that's if you want to.

tells you about personality, race, character.
though its quite fictional, sadly.

the race i got was Elf.
interestingly, i've always thought thats how my personality is.
well? support, ranged precision, etc.

ah shucks.
haha that was random.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

won't say much about the day (before 4pm)

got home then,
went for a quick swim downstairs,
wasted bits of time doing random stuff before dropping myself in front of the tv for ndp.

it was fun i guess.
apart from what was on tv, saw lots of stuff from my home window.
saw the helicopter+parachuters at the start,
saw the helicopter with the national day really close up,
saw the fighter jets,
saw the second round of parachuters,
and the best part,
saw all the fireworks,
though this year was either very little and short, or just disappointing.

ah well.
cheers all!
happy national day.
:)

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

damn, i haven't blogged in a while i guess.
pretty hectic, the past few days for review week.
went out to jack's place for lunch with class,
and also played lan at katong shopping complex.

today?
national day celebrations.
this year's was different from last year.
anyway, school had about 1 hour + for walking around, visiting stalls, etc.
ended up doing sip in the range (which reminds me, i have to type it out.)
also played a bit of carom.
there was a band set up below the linkway.

geez, i love seeing the drummer drum.
rock version of national day songs,
also mass dances eventually.

i'm definitely irritated at people putting me up with random people.
even still, i've never really given up.
not for about a year and a third.

went on to play badminton with yiling elroy and jourdan.
really fun.

went on to plaza sing to meet my brother, watched distrubia.
not for the faint of heart =)

~~

can't believe its nearly to end of term 3.
too fast.

Days would come to an end
Well maybe someday we'll meet again
If ever that day never comes
It would be too soon

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Step It Up A Notch.

Sum 41 - Underclass Hero

1..2..3..4
Well I won’t be caught living in a dead end job
While praying to my government, guns, and god
Now it's us against them
We’re here to represent
And spit right in the face of the establishment

And now I don't believe (In having faith in nothing!)
Stand on my own (Got no sympathy!)
Wasting the youth (While being young and useless!)
Speak for yourself (And don't pray for me!)

Because we're doing fine
And we don't need to be told
That we're doing fine
Cause we won't give you control
And we don't need anything from you
Cause we'll be just fine
And we won't be bought and sold
Just like you

(A call across the Underclass)

Calling out loud with no respect
I’m not the one, just another reject
I'm the voice to offend
All those who pretend
Unsung against the grain I'm here to rise against

And now I'm desensitized (I state my place in nowhere!)
Burning the flag (Of the degeneration!)

Everyone sing (The Anthem of no future!)
Down with the mass ('Cause we're not listening!)

Well because we're doing fine
And we don't need to be told
That we're doing fine
Cause we won't give you control
And we don't need anything from you
Cause we'll be just fine
And we won't be bought and sold
Just like you

May I have your attention please…
I pledge allegiance to the underclass as your hero at large.

1..2..3..4

We’re the saints of degeneration
We don’t owe anyone an explanation
---- elitists
We don’t need this
We're the elite of just alright

Well because we're doing fine
And we don't need to be told
That we're doing fine
Cause we won't give you control
And we don't need anything from you
Cause we'll be just fine
And we won't be bought and sold
Just like you

Friday, August 03, 2007

halfway through.
probably flopped bio, skimming ss.
but surprisingly, chem and chinese were okay. (i think)

came home earlier today.
before leaving met up with shengy jun han kevin and kai liang.
wanted to go play pool in the igloo with kai liang.
on the way down, sneaked a peek back in class.
seriously.
no other class would have that many people remaining in class.
what's more, studying away.

geez.
its friday!

listen to this one. it's worth it.
From Sum 41's new album "underclass hero"
no longer far out into punk/hard rock.
a change.
pop/alt rock now.

~~

Sum 41 - Walking Disaster

Could you validate me before you break me in,
And what you're calling a cheap shot well I took you on the chin,
It's never where you're going, It's always where you've been,
So where have you been,

And if you'd lead I blindly follow,
Down an empty street I'd lose my shadow,
I'm the sand in your hand watch me fall straight through,

I don't know why you're here or what you're after,
Talking to the, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
Fell straight through, I took one step forward and fell straight backwards,
On the move, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
It's just stupid noise,

Could you recreate me, I need a thicker skin,
And this soul you walked on baby is slowly wearing thin,
Could you elevate me so I can feel the wind,
Feel the wind,

And if you bleed the sharks will find you,
Lying underneath all that defines you,
I'm the sand in your hand watch me fall straight through,

I don't know why you're here or what you're after,
Talking to the, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
Fell straight through, I took one step forward and fell straight backwards,
On the move, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
It's just stupid noise,

I'm lost in the shadow hours,
Once theirs you know it won't be ours,
We fight but we fight to no avail,
We claim our life has gotten stale,
Hands free and nothing less the fear,
It's just me testing the atmosphere,
I'm testing the atmosphere,

I don't know why you're here or what you're after,
Talking to the, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
Fell straight through, I took one step forward and fell straight backwards,
On the move, I'm the one they call the walking disaster,
It's just stupid noise,
So why are you here, and what are you after,
'Cause you talking to the walking disaster,
You'll let us know