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Friday, October 26, 2007

Some Values Have Utmost Power.
And Yet, In This World, They Are Just Useless.

What was probably the last lesson in T31 came and gone.

Hours That We Left Behind,
Answers That We'll Never Find.

~~

Boys Like Girls - Hero/Heroine

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and the skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Give Me A Gun,
Or A Bullet To My Head.

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Saw my overall results today.
and i see everyone, being as naive, marks orientated ~~once more~~ as they've always been.
some say they missed an A overall by 0.1.
some say they missed an A overall by 0.7.
some say they only just managed to scrape an A overall.

Sometimes, people should think before talking.
if not for their insensitivity.

~~

Paramore - Misery Business

I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass it's ticking like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When I thought he was mine, she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months
She finally set him free
I told him I couldn't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me, but I wear the biggest smile

Whoa...well I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't never matter, people never change
Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I passed up, now look this way!

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want it what they like, it's easy if you do it right
[Misery Business lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa...well I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good ...

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving ...

Whoa,well I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now ...

Whoa,well I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But God does it feels so good
'Cause I got him where I want him now
And if you could then you know you would
'Cause God it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Monday, October 22, 2007

Scared of what will happen.
Keeping silent.
Hoping for the best

Friday, October 19, 2007

If Ever That Day Never Comes,
It Would Be Too Soon.

Sometimes, time really becomes the enemy.
Sometimes, time is our friend.
And Sometimes, We Just Wish It Could Be Controlled.

Gone, forever,
are the days of the past.
and yet,
Remaining, forever,
the memories of the past.

And i doubt the song, playing in my head, will ever die out.

Some know me well enough.
I play my game strong.
Put up a good front.
But, you get through that,
And i won't be able to do a thing.

I Will Not Break.

~~

the.illusionist.studio|| walking past. says (9:29 PM):

aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
well it's moving on la
matter of time
the unfortunate truth is, some people will have to be forgotten
those that aren't so close and all
but gatherings and all that suddenly become more special

~~

To you, one i haven't given up on, i'm still here.
Trying to be strong, trying to find the right time,

trying to do so many things.
And, in the process, making so many mistakes.
Too many.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Finally. After two long months, i cut my hair again. Have been thinning it out myself occasionally, but now, there's no need! heh.

Lightning outside my house now.
You know what they say about X seconds between lightning and thunder means that its X km from where you are? How about less than a second. how about it coming the same time as the lightning? o.0 not exactly safe, especially living on the 16th floor.

~~

Seeing Is Believing.
But It Only Brings You So Far.
Never Can Looks Transmit Emotions. Nor Feelings.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Friday was a full day.
Was it the first full day this year? i seem to only remember half days. stayed in class to finish off sip (yes, i know it's bloody late). went to play badminton for about an hour before heading over to thai pan to join two classes worth of people for lunch. we took up four tables. i don't seem to remember such a big group of people there together.

Went on to play pool with kailiang renjie cephas alvin kelvin jt yiliang jerald althea and may. i really did lose my touch. haha. watched as the guys played lan as i didnt have zion membership. nothing much to say there.

eventually went home and slept for the first time at 7.30

~~

Loyalty. Faith. Hope. Hustle. Respect.

Friday, October 05, 2007

1) Give a sigh of relief.
2) Stretch back, relax.
3) Yawn. Yawn like you've never yawned before.
4) Sleep.

Four activities on my "to-do" list.
heh.

Last Hurdle.

Monday, October 01, 2007

hit's been a while. Now, we're officially halfway through the end of years. four subjects down, two and what's left of ss to go. Chinese was a total bore, with four hours of writing and having to focus on chinese. language arts, well, i can't comment on that and i'll explain why later. Maths and Chem, both contain mistakes, though i'm sure they won't be failures.

So far, i haven't had the slightest sense of urgency, of exam stress. I've tried pushing myself to study, succeeding, but still, no feeling of stress. Though that may be a good thing, it definitely isn't when it comes to being unable to study, unable to keep focused on studying.

The Result so far? Completing of papers, not knowing how well i fared, along with bits of stoning through the papers.

It's that unique feeling.
打一发,丢一发.